Well of Illusions!

Saturday, May 16, 2009

a trying week although almost over, has already thrown up quite a few issues. disregarding the big ones that have obviously left me really disappointed, i think i should be addressing the supposedly more minute ones. like my language. i think i should swear less. yes, even though the last post doesn't really prove my point but i'm really trying! just tend to lose control of myself when i get too pissed off.

and that too: i've really been trying to control my temper recently. cos it's not nice when you get angry at other people. i wouldn't like to have people getting angry at me everyday so i guess i should try to be the same to others. but i seriously just lost it yesterday. was given a good talking-to by mrs nathan. i really miss the ri days. teachers used to really care about student welfare then. not to say that there aren't any who do now, because i'm sure there are, but 1.5 - 2 years can never be compared to the kind of reliability that you forge with mentors who have been with you for 3, sometimes even 4 years. even after so many months, she still knows the right things to say.

other than that i really think i need to shore up my image a little. probably one of the reasons why i'm not reaching out to 'her' so well: i'm just not up to her standard. got to bring in the hardcore strengthening and dieting regime again!

and my verse to get me through the week (yes, even when this has become a time when admitting that you're a Christian can really get you into alot of shit. i know that i haven't really been a very good testimony but at least i still believe in what i'm doing. don't think alot of people can say the same thing can they?):

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9

slau updated @ 7:39 PM

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