Well of Illusions!

Friday, November 23, 2007

sianded moulded love is really a very interesting concept. you never expect it to strike, but it just does! and in the most unexpected of ways :D

and contrary to popular belief, it doesn't make you emo...

it makes you happy!

yeah i mean like even when you see some girl going off with another guy, you should be happy for her because if you really love her the way you should, then you should be able to accept whatever that she does and trust that she knows what she's doing and wish her all the best and hope you don't find her alone in an alley ten years down the road holding a baby wrapped in a cloth and shivering her eyeballs out (:

k that was tough, but you kind of get the message!

and in line with my new BFS (Bowling for Soup) craze, i found the perfect song to go with it!

Smoothie King
Bowling for Soup

She don’t even know exactly where she wants to go
Is that a double negative oh never mind let’s go
To the next line of the story
I met her at the smoothie king she said Seattle’s best
She may be right think I remember coffee on her breathe
She smoked cigarettes, I chewed bubble gum

I know I shouldn’t take it but I think I kind of like it
When she tells me that I’m dumb
And this may sound pathetic but I think that we can make it
We’ll go on and on and on and on

Love songs suck and fairy tales aren’t true
And happy ending Hollywood is not for me and you

So add it up and break it down
It’s not that hard to figure out
Your crazy and I’m crazy about you

Everyone around me says she brings a brother down
And mommy thinks she’s great but then again she’s not around
To see her throw a fit, borderline conniption
And all this only matters if we listen anyway
And she’s all I can think about so I must not be gay
I’m a lunatic and she’s my psychopath

I know I shouldn’t take it but I think I kind of like it
When she tells me that I’m dumb
And this may sound pathetic but I think that we can make it
We’ll go on and on and on and on

Love songs suck and fairy tales aren’t true
And happy ending Hollywood is not for me and you

So add it up and break it down
It’s not that hard to figure out
Your crazy and I’m crazy about you

And we are the lucky ones we’ll get matching tee shirts airbrushed at the mall
Hang out at the pretzel stand and make fun of people and laugh if someone falls
Watch everyone else hold hands and try so hard and maybe we’ll start to see
That you and me we’re not so crazy

Michael Bolton (never liked him)
Celine dion
Air Supply
And now… ME

Love songs suck and fairy tales aren’t true (Love songs make me sick cuz they’re not true)
And happy ending Hollywood is not for me and you
Hollywood California
So add it up and break it down (add it up and break it down)
It’s not that hard to figure out
Your crazy and I’m crazy about you

Love songs make me sick cuz they’re not true
Your crazy and I’m crazy about you
Crazy cuz im crazy about you
Your crazy and im crazy about you… yeah

yerdeh! and you accept her no matter how screwed up she may be :D

slau updated @ 12:38 AM

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Monday, November 19, 2007

yerdeh! i have great friends!! :D:D:D

good friends help you win facebook fights babex!!!

and anw, this is another BFS (Bowling for Soup) song that's a little older but still just as cool! :D

Girl all the Bad Guys Want

Girl all the Bad Guys Want
Bowling for Soup
8 o’clock, monday night and I’m waitin’
To finally talk to a girl a little cooler than me.
Her name is nona, she’s a rocker with a nose ring,
She wears a two way, but I’m not quite sure what that means.

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She doesn’t notice me!

Cause she is watchin’ wrestling
Creamin’ over tough guys
Listenin’ to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

It’s like a bad movie
She is lookin’ through me
If you were me, then you’d be
Screamin’ "someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin’ to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!

She likes the godsmack and I like agent orange
Her cd changer’s full of singers that are mad at their dad
She says she’d like to score some reefer and a forty
She’ll never know that I’m the best that she’ll never have

And when she walks,
All the wind blows and the angels sing.
She’ll never notice me!

Cause she is watchin’ wrestling
Creamin’ over tough guys
Listenin’ to rap metal
Turntables in her eyes

She likes ’em with a mustache
Racetrack season pass
Drivin’ in a trans-am
Does a mullet make a man?

It’s like a bad movie
She is lookin’ through me
If you were me, then you’d be
Screamin’ "someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin’ to get the girl all the bad guys want.
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!

There she goes again
With fishnets on, and dreadlocks in her hair
She broke my heart, I wanna be sedated
All I wanted was to see her naked!

Now I am watchin’ wrestling
Tryin’ to be a tough guy
Listenin’ to rap metal
Turntables in my eyes
I can’t grow a mustache
And I ain’t got no season pass
All I got’s a moped...moped....moped.....

It’s like a bad movie
She is lookin’ through me
If you were me, then you’d be
Screamin’ "someone shoot me!"
As I fail miserably,
Tryin’ to get the girl all the bad guys want.

She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
(there she goes again)
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
(there she goes again)
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!
She’s the girl all the bad guys want!

slau updated @ 1:03 AM

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Saturday, November 17, 2007

EEEEEEEEEEEYO!

i am up AGAIN at this unearthly hour, NO not on facebook...i do have my limits y'know -.-

actually i find it quite hard to sleep these days and i tend to always wake up in the middle of the night! then i'll look around and try to find something to read in bed or play my psp or listen to music and in the end i'll just throw my pillow(s) to a side and just come down and surf the net. no not porn. net.

and listen to bowling for soup! :D

who todally rock yo? more songs later :D

and i hate having to buy albums all the time i wish i could download music and i WISH downloading music was legal! at this rate i won't even be able to watch anime online anymore! and they're already deleting anime off websites so -_-

DAMN YOU i wna watch avatar dickheads!

so yes anyhoo today (or yesterday) was training and i am damn frickin tired i tell you. training is sucking the very life out of me...by like 5 (training starts at 230) i was smelling like something from the longkang outside my house. oh wait, there's no longkang outside my house but you can imagine what the longkang outside your house would smell like if there was a longkang there.

and TOMORROW! I! AM! GOING! FOR! YOUTH! SERVICE! AH! SO! FRIGHTENING!

yes it IS my first time so, don't judge me -.-

YOU KNOW WHAT?

i don't want to go to rj ):

i think it's going to be the worst two years of my entire life UP TIL now. yes, even worse than this year and i was THIS close to ending it RIGHT there and then! so you can just go and estimate how badly screwed i will end up by the time i find myself having to enlist for NS...

sigh. now you appreciate the benefits of a single-sex learning environment yes? walao...and high school never ends somemore.

the whole damn world is just as obsessed with who's the best dressed and who's having sex

haiz.

can't blog coherently at 4am in the morning >_< going to sleep now wish me luck in church tmr guys!

We can all join hands and do ring around the freaking rosie!

slau updated @ 4:16 AM

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Friday, November 16, 2007

bowling for soup is just the most KICKASS band ever! didn't really follow them much even after 1985 but high school never ends has just UP-ED THEIR SOCIAL STATUS WHERE I'M CONCERNED MAN!

I'm Gay and no, it's not about homosexuality don't be stupid -_-

I'm Gay
Bowling for Soup
(This fucking song is all personality)
(Dude, that's the shit!)

Well we've all heard about
how the guys in the band
Weren't the popular kids in school
And now you hate your parents
'cause of the way you turned out
But in the end the blame's on you

And we all sympathize with your torn-apart heart
And your really artistic worldly views
It sells records when you're sad these days
It's super cool to be mad these days

I think rock and roll is really funny
when it's serious

Don't hate us 'cause we're happy
Don't hate us 'cause we're beautiful
Don't hate us if we make you smile
Or if we go the extra mile
To make someone feel better
on a really shitty day
And if you're hearing what I'm saying then
I want you to say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)
Say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)

Let's start a movement, let's start it right now
And if you don't know where to start
I can show you I'm your new team captain
Put your left hand over your heart
and repeat after me

It's perfectly fine to be a happy individual
It's perfectly fine to be a happy individual
Chris, Gary? You guys wanna join in?
(Yeah, buddy. Sure. Sorry Dude)
It's perfectly fine to be a happy individual
It's perfectly fine to be a happy individual
Very Nice. Very Nice.

Don't hate us 'cause we're happy
Don't hate us 'cause you're miserable
Don't hate us if we make you smile
Or if we go the extra mile
To make someone feel better on a really shitty day
And if you're hearing what I'm saying then
I want you to say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)
Say, "I'm gay!" (I'm gay!)

That's right, ladies and gentleman!
Pick up the phone
'cause Bowling For Soup is on the line!
And you don't have to be sad anymore!
You don't have to be mad anymore!
We can all join hands and do ring around
the freaking rosie!
In fact, can we can get some "La la"s up in here?

It sells records when you're sad these days
It's super cool to be mad these days
I think rock and roll is really funny
When it's serious

Yo, where my "La la"s at!

La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la

Whee! hopefully if i post tmr i will get more youtube vids of their songs up :D

slau updated @ 10:30 PM

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yerdeh! today i went to watch BEOWULF and STARDUST! with a very special friend who was in a stylo-milo all-black and emo get up whoader!! cool sia...xDD

which was SO NOT like beowulf thanks after all that publicity that it got whether from the newspapers and even from my frickin LEET magazine! walao i was really expecting something better than CGI crap where the movements are SO OBVIOUSLY jerky and unreal...and the CONVERSATION omg...and i thought NEIL GAIMAN did the storyboard?! sure didn't sound like him...

and like what's with the last part argh beowulf's best friend just standing there looking at angelina jolie...? and so much for nudity argh that's bs man shouldn't even be rated luh! just because they have CORNY parts where beowulf just strips down to nothing to fight grendal? SO UNNECESSARY i tell you! bleh...and they could have shown more of angelina jolie thanks? -.-

but after that was stardust and OMG did it kickass! walao i know i'm a bit late because i wanted to hear what people had to say about this movie i thought would be quite cool when i first saw the trailer in cinemas! and believe it or not some people actually said it sucked! well i dunno where your sense of humour went to man this movie was not only fantastical, it was just as much a comedy as like, the game plan! :O lol...

which says alot i haven't actually read the novel but after seeing what neil gaimen did with beowulf...er i'm having second thoughts even though anansi boys was really by far one of the best books that i've read! claire danes is sooo cool! sheesh i can't believe i'm falling head over heels in love with all these females that are so obviously out of my reach xD

well if i maybe made it big with singing -_-

captain shakespeare was a welcome introduction to the otherwise derogatory stereotypes that pirates are used to...the princes' ghosts was hilarious xDD i thoroughly enjoyed it and it was really very creative methinks! hopefully those people doing theatre studies in rj can do that in two years? oO

haha who am i kidding xDD

but stardust is really a great movie and i really wish one day i could do something like that...sigh. it makes me so happy i just feel like crying now (:

so many good movies coming up! the golden compass is DAMN GOOD and once again it's from a BOOK! this is becoming like a success story luh! beowulf doesn't count cos it was a poem -_-

then there're the SPIDERWICK CHRONICLES!!! haven't read but it looks DAMN GOOD! just that i hope it's not like bridge to terabithia T_T i like tear jerkers but CRYING IN THE CINEMA IS NOT ME!!! argh! must read also!!

and HITMAN :O the resident game-to-movie combination, but they kinda tweaked the story of number 47 a little from the game. at first i kinda had my doubts i mean, hitman? and believe it or not these kind of movies have a very predictable storyline...and just as i thought it's about someone setting up number 47 for a big fall and he goes after those baddies. even though he himself can be considered a baddie. ok. confusing.

lol! so many good movies so little time!

and two movies in one day is just killer...maybe they should use movie marathons as a killing method in saw 5 luh...sick movie. todally disgusting.

oh yes! totally <3 this song and yes it's where i get my new kickass pm on msn frm. presenting: high school never ends by bowling for soup!

High School Never Ends
Bowling for Soup

HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

4 Years you think for sure
That's all you've got to endure
All the Total Dicks
All the Stuck-up Chicks
So superficial, so immature

Then When you graduate,
Ya take a look around and you say "Hey Wait!"
This is the same as where I just came from,
I thought it was over, Aw that's just great.

Ch:
The Whole Damned World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the Honeys,
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
HEY!

Check out the popular kids
You'll never guess what Jessica did!
And how did Mary Kate lose all that weight?
And Katie had a baby so I guess Tom's straight!

And the only thing that matters,
Is climbing up that social ladder
Still care about your hair and the car you drive
Doesn't matter if you're 16 or 35

Reese Witherspoon, she's the Prom Queen
Bill Gates, Captain of the chess team
Jack Black, the clown
Brad Pitt, the quarterback

Seen it all before
I want my money back!

Ch:
The Whole Damned World is just as obsessed
With who's the best dressed and who's having sex
Who's in the club and who's on the drugs
Who's throwing up before they digest

And you still don't have the right look
And you don't have the right friends
And you still listen to the same shit you did back then

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Ch:
The Whole Damned World is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who‘s having sex
Who‘s got the money. Who gets the Honeys,
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess

And I still don't have the right look
And I still have the same 3 friends
And I'm pretty much the same as I was back then

High School Never Ends
Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
High School Never Ends

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh
Here We Go Again

Oh Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh, Oh Oh Oh-Oh

slau updated @ 2:57 AM

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Friday, November 9, 2007

phew...i cannot believe i am still up at this hour! 447am on a friday morning...no idea how i'm going to survive training later xD oh well...

anyhow, around this time of year i am overwhelmed with absolute joy that i am part of a circle of friends so tightly knitted that i'm very sure something like junior college will never succeed in splitting us apart (:

yes, even though some of us choose to take such GL combinations, i think we can still remain as the same 4P of 2007 that kicked ass and gave so many teachers so much trouble and totally owned comedy fest and totally did not do any of the things we had planned for the last day of school -_-

so yes, i don't think i really wasted my time staying up this late doing nothing. there's always something that needs to be done and even when i'm half dead going through physics when i've already learnt and forgotten them a million times over since sec 3, i find my cap portfolio is nowhere near completion. okay who am i kidding i haven't even started on it -_-

and i have no desire to chiong it like last year pls a super duper camp laughing at metros isn't worth staying up til 3am for an entire week. and i find myself lacking inspiration to write and my taking pcme in jc without any lit or theatre studies is just going to stifle my creativity so i better get it going while i still have some 'forsooth' in me...

k i just like saying forsooth it has a certain ring to it i dno why :D maybe cos it rhymes with tooth oO oh my mother will be so proud...

anyhoo, grad dinner was grah wtf. i can't believe i fell ill with such a bad sore throat until i could barely croak out bless the broken road by rascal flatts. and to think that very morning hiok wanted me to do bohemian rhapsody the next day...well next year la promise. still have to get as thin as freddie mercury so i can fit into that skin tight silver suit whoa...gayness man. as in, literally gayness.

and basket la in the end i didn't even get to go on stage pls..wth just stood at my seat and bowed and waved...meh...not to mention the fact that i didn't win anything at the luck draw either! not fair la!

taiwan trip with ri softball is approaching also...and i have mixed feelings about the whole thing honestly. it's quite hard to fathom that these girls, who are supposed to be the same age as us, are really that good! like omgwtfbbq? really meh! but yeah! that's what i've been hearing and that's what i've started believing too! like now i get nightmares about getting my butt kicked by high school girls? and after that i see myself bawling on the floor while they laugh at me ):

lol...

getting owned is not a nice feeling trust me.

and after that is euro trip with my family which is abit -_- cos i think europe is all about sight-seeing which isn't really a big fav of mine. i just don't think i'll be able to sit still and bleh...i think i'll fall asleep and piss my dad or mum off or something...

and christmas presents also omg i can't believe i still have tianyu's thingum with me xD haha in two months 8 days it'd be a year late so HAHA omg sorry if you ever read this! sorry sorry! xDD

anyway ya christmas presents anyone pls i need requests cos i suck at getting presents...

and regent street stuff is damn ex right! walao!

aiyah gd times la dey!

slau updated @ 4:46 AM

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Monday, November 5, 2007

yeah well, okay i know i haven't been posting at all but yeah that's the way it kinda goes when you have so much on your mind that you can't even be bothered to enter the url, your password and username and click on a few links to talk about your thoughts and feelings on certain issues, but yes here i am because i have spent the past few days at moses's chalet thinking things over.

and yes, all while para para-ing and xbox-ing and getting owned by malays at soccer-ing.

this has been the crappiest year by far in ri and i say that without any doubt in my mind at all. rs was a chore although in the end i think my second place was well and truly deserved because nabil admittedly was the better contestant. my only regret is that the people that actually needed convincing weren't there and therefore that kind of made this opportunity a little wasted, no offence to my endearing fans that were once again out in full force to provide whatever support they could for me and for that i am eternally grateful.

and so this is also what it's like to be some sort of a star, because after the concert i was faced with a wave of people i had never seen before who were saying hi and good job and etc etc to me and i was just like oO do i know you? well at least i had the sense to at least smile (i hope) back and maybe shake a few hands. lol. showbizz and stardom is so not for me but wdv not as if engineering is.

also, where grades are concerned i really feel like kicking myself for screwing it up in my last year in secondary school. of all the years to get the lowest gpa in my entire four years, it had to be this one. and i was at least banking on my cca to give me some respite, but no a service award for softball isn't going to cut it for me at all.

it's just been really disappointing to see people achieve so much in something while condemning another aspect of their school life to hell while here i am trying to be an all-rounder and end up screwing everything up. once again, no offense but it kind of irks me to see the mugger class of 4R receive close to (or possibly) zero awards for cca. i really don't see the point in achieving a stellar academic history while your cca record is burnt to the ground. school isn't about just mugging alone, and as many people may have heard from my random outbursts, any tom dick and harry with a reasoable IQ can get a 4.0 gpa if all he does is wake up at 6am, go to school, study, come home at 315, 130 or 1245 depending on which school day it is and mug til he goes to bed at whatever donkey time that may be.

and then there are the paul terns, the seriously unmatchable, incomparable, achievable-only-if-you're-a-god kind of person, who becomes what, head boy, ccal and top scorer in class all at once. obviously everyone's trying to do what he does but i just can't seem to wake up and tell myself no way slau you're not a paul tern. you're just well, a slau.

and the thing that makes it harder is that i can't bring myself to let go of any of the other things that i do in school. i like singing, althought i don't intend to pursue it very passionately, even though i do have a passion for it (ok that was confusing). i did consider giving up softball but brian didn't so who am i to consider that course of action. and i can't drop out of school, no matter how much i want to. i'd get kicked out of my house and live on the streets as a reject my entire life. so yeah, i can only try my best to be a paul tern.

which i am destined to fail at, no qualms about it.

you know why?

because i can't keep to myself. my hands are just naturally twitchy and i can't help it but double click the cs icon or the fm icon on my laptop's desktop and start playing for hours on end, especially when exams aren't near. but that's the period of time the paul terns are probably mugging the most.

even worse, this insatiable hunger to do anything but study is apparent even during the exam period. facebook, msn, etc etc...it just can't and won't end for me!

which is why i have made a solemn oath to become as INTROVERTED and SOCIOPATHICAL as i can in rjc. nope, no more going out, no more hanging around late after training, no more gaming, no more having fun. it's just going to be mugging, mugging, mugging, a bit of softball, mugging somemore...and then i'll be done with jc in a flash.

because i am SICK and TIRED of feeling like such a RETARD when i see so many other people doing so well in SO many of the things that i yearn to succeed at. it just pisses me off really and i just cannot bring myself to continue when my pride and joy is dashed on the rocks of disappointment when someone else comes and tells me 'oh i did better'. obviously i bring it upon myself when i ask people how they did, but isn't that only natural? maybe if i wasn't so enthusiastic about life (or was enthusiastic, seeing as how my new outlook on school is going to be implemented very soon), i wouldn't be so disappointed with myself because then i'd only be competing with myself, and myself alone.

so yes, lonely little secluded corner in rj, here i come.

slau updated @ 1:08 AM

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