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Sunday, January 27, 2008

yeah well, ok i know i told some people i was going to sleep but sorry i really needed some time on my own to reflect and review this past week.

what has struck me most about this period which i've reflected about if how faithful my God has been to me. even though i've been such an uncommitted christian, smsing in church and sleeping sometimes and not taking God seriously, now i know He hasn't ever left my side, and is still as close to me as He was when i first entered this world.

i was really really scared on the way to school to collect my HCL o's and you have no idea how badly i was suffering the night before. i hardly got any sleep in the end, and i was practically surviving on coffee for the whole of thursday.

i actually had my doubts while praying, i mean i think God does have common sense of His own as well, and since the o's were the most important thing to me at that point in time i full expected God to dish out some kind of punishment.

but praise be to Him that i believe in such a loving and kind God. i did pass, albeit not very well but i'm still very grateful because admittedly i didn't put in alot of effort.

that's the first.

immediately the next day was my raffles rock auditions and the results of the first round of talentime auditions. so obviously with my o's out of the way i could fully focus my anguish on these two things, and yes that was when the feverish praying in tongues and pleading and begging with God actually began but yes all the glory goes to Jesus my saviour i made it to the next round of talentime and my auditions for raffles rock proceeded without any mistakes/calamities/tragedies and i'm just waiting and expecting their call saying yes you got in (: this is the faith my God has instilled in me that yes, anything is possible with Jesus!

ya i know i may not seem very staunch or pious at times, and i do admit that i'm a lousy testimony. i admit that i have strayed very far away, and i'm very much a prodigal's son at the moment. but i am overjoyed that God has accepted me as His son, and i am more than willing to get my life with Him back on track again!

in school and at home, my prayer is that i will be someone that God will be proud of, someone who can reflect His love and His kindness, and be a living sacrifice for Him (:

and, to quote isabella's nick:

in every victory, let it be said of me: my source of strength, my source of hope; is Christ alone!

all glory be to God!

so plsplspls if i have offended anyone in any way i'd like to ask for your forgiveness pls give me a second chance ): i'm not half the man i used to be because now i hope that God is actively working His way in and through me to make me a better person!

(:

slau updated @ 12:51 AM

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Thursday, January 24, 2008

okk my good flen matilda just asked me to update at like, 0038 hours so ya, that's what i'm doing see i'm such a good friend la pls. don't get many people like me around anymore do you ):

so sad w0rx.

anw in about 13.5 hours time i'm going to get back HCL O's :/ and i'm quite scared...though i'm confident that God will see me through. seriously, i'm just aiming for a D7, cos it's stil going to get you the same thing as an A1 or an A2: no chinese in JC! :D:D:D

i've been going crazy over queen lately...and it's no wonder i'm going to do a queen song for raffles rock auditions on friday! :D haha you'll see what it is IF you turn up! 540 on friday kthx ;) at erm a30-smething i think!

i was choosing between going for switchfoot, santana or the queen musical and i think i've more or less decided on the we will rock you queen musical cos it's really cheap at a student's price for about TWO AND A HALF HOURS of good music from the MAIN MAN himself FREDDIE MERCURY. ya i know he's gay and yes i admit i'm homophobic but I CAN MAKE EXCEPTIONS LA!

so WHO WANTS TO GO PLS!?

i can't be going for such a coolios event all by myself right! ):

anyway to convince you guys, here are some of the more famous songs by Queen:

Don't Stop Me Now

I Want To Break Free

Another One Bites The Dust

Somebody To Love

and who could forget classics like Bohemian Rhapsody, We Are The Champions, and We Will Rock You!? how can you resist pls! so PLSPLSPLS GO WITH ME LEI FIFTY BUCKS ONLY LARRR WALAOOO ):

slau updated @ 12:37 AM

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Wednesday, January 23, 2008

ok, after this there's only going to be 11 more to a century of posts! :D long live slau w0rx!

been really long since i last posted...about ten days i'd say? oO oh you poor, poor souls life must have been so boring! ):

but fear not! for here i am to brighten up your day again! :D yes, at 218am in the morning! staying up late/early ftw!

so about a week of normal school has gone by, and ok my class hasn't turned out quite as badly as i'd imagined it to be...not quite as wacky and crazy as 4P, but fun nonetheless. at least i HOPE i won't fall asleep.

teachers aren't so bad either. well except for one or two out of all of them. but there are always gna be some bag eggs in whatever you do i guess...just have to live with it!

this week is going to be some crazy mad spammage week for me. yesterday (just) i had talentime auditions, which i HOPE i did well enough for, then there's POTENTIALLY going to be another audition for raffles rock on friday (tho i hope i get a monday slot plsplspls my throat's gna go bust at this rate) and THURSDAY IS RELEASE OF O'S OMG!

i hope everyone i know who's nt frm ri/rgs still stays in rj T_T

k that was fast! :D

shit im damn tired imma gna slp. boring post, sorry guys ><

slau updated @ 2:15 AM

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Monday, January 14, 2008

before you read any further, let me provide a word of caution: this post is not going to be all sugary and fun-loving, neither is it going to be all suck-up and fake. this is going to be a damning analysis of all that has transpired in the past two weeks or so of school, and i am going to put down my thoughts on exactly how i feel about them whether you like it or not. so if you don't like the cold, hard facts, then go read some cutesy girl magazine.

school start off really well with a fantastic orientation group. i don't think i could have asked for anything better. from the word go i sought to get to know my non-ri and rgs peers better, and i think that hong rui and chien ming really will fit in well with the rest of the raffles crowd. and no, i'm not going to entertain the thought of them having to leave when the o level results come out on friday. it's just too tragic to be true.

the others who didn't come from either of the raffles schools in my og were daphne and isabella. actually i'm not sure if my usage of the past tense in this case if very appropriate because they're still very much part of our og and our og is still very much intact. i sincerely believe they'll spend the rest of the next two years in rj.

and so, having brought together a mix of people from a total of 6 different schools, our og was bound to be an interesting one. to the guys, like seng han and cheng han, i find myself pleasantly surprised by the unexpected fun that you two have brought to the group. to think that i've been in the same school with these two guys for four years and not gotten to know them is truly quite hard to believe.

for the girls, there's AILEEN!!! and cheryl, who stays really near me! :O small world w0rx! Aileen's really fun to make fun off ;) and i hope everyone starts NOT using the correct pronunciation of her name, just to diff her...HAHAHA okkk on a serious note i do hope both of us get into writers' guild :X (fingers crossed, for ME not you eileen!)

so yeah, i don't really feel like going over all the things that happened during orientation, but it was really quite a good time that we had together and i always smile everytime i think back to the collective effort that we showed in the station games and the IHC sentosa, where we totally pwned all the other OGs and in the latter event, still had enough time to make our way back to the 7-11 van to get ourselves a drink xD bw07 totally kicks ass and everyone knows it! HAH!

of all the people in my og i do have to say that the person i'm most grateful for has to be chien ming. in a time of transition and getting used to the countless number of changes that the change in environment from a single sex to co-ed school has brought, he's been one of those that's stuck by me the past few days and i'm really grateful for that. even though i've attached myself to him like a leech, he hasn't once dissed me for it.

which isn't something i can say for CERTAIN people who i've known for so much longer than the people in my orientation group. and yet, they seem to have found their own bunch of cool friends, such that someone like me is now too un-cool to be seen with them. when that happens, i guess the only thing for me to do is the backout and go somewhere else. and that's what friends are for.

not that there aren't any disadvantages from that! i've met a lot of really nice people now, like amanda, gail, jeremy, kenneth, jia cong...and got to speak with some people who i wouldn't even have come into contact with had i been stuck with my previous crowd. so yes, everything has two sides to it. and maybe it was better getting dissed by my friends (who should really be ex-friends now) now rather than later. and to whoever you are, screw you! (:

got lots of events lined up for me: just decided on which story i'm submitting for my application to the writers' guild (yes i'm not writing anything new, lazy me xD) and i have auditions for raffles rock coming up, as well as talentime! :O so packed wor!

and so to finish up, i'd like to thank people like seetow and tom, for sticking wit' me as well even though they could have just as easily run off with their new friends. i can't possibly name everybody who's been nice to me in this post, but to whoever you are, just know that i'm really thankful that you've been there for me during this trying period of adjustments (:

and here's to the best og ever:

bw07: TAOYAN!
LEE CHENG HAN
GIDEON TAN ZE LIN
CHUA SENG HAN
DAI QIAN WEI
TAN JOEL
LAU CHUAN XIAN SAMUEL (taitai!)
TAN CHOON HIANG
READON TEH LONG HUA
YU ZIJUN ALIAS YU ZIYUN
OH SHENG LI CHERYL LYNN
SARA SIM HUI LI
CHEN SHU YU
KOH HSIE JINN THEODORA KAYDENC
TAN ZHI HUA
DAWN SING-YHEEN CHENG (towkay!)
TAY KAI YING EILEEN
ONG JAZ XIN JOANNA
DAPHNE ALEXANDRIA LAI FEN-TING
LIN XINGJING ISABELLA
TAN CHIEN MING
TAN HONG RUI

and to my SUPERB and VERY VERY NICE AND CARING OGLs :D
ASHLEY
ZHIYING
WANJOO

THANKS SO MUCH for being so PATIENT with all of us! and helping us along the way! HEARTEXX W0RX ALWAYS!

<3

slau updated @ 12:08 AM

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Sunday, January 6, 2008

haha walao i dun post already nobody tags...

anyway since this is one of the few times where i'm actually awake and on the com the past few days i might as well blog so i won't have too much stuff to write about when lessons start proper...

i like my og! haha yeah that was straightforward and easy enough to say. but i think rj has gotten off to a good start la! and we're quite ownage ok: 2nd in station games and 3rd in sentosa ihc...bw07 pwnzjoo! haha (:

wah damn tired...

ok goodnight.

slau updated @ 1:53 AM

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Tuesday, January 1, 2008

I FRICKIN DIG OLD SKOOL MAN OMG

CHECK OUT THIS KICK-ASS SONG HAHA

slau updated @ 1:39 AM

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