Well of Illusions!

Saturday, March 7, 2009

okay the week hasn't exactly passed completely yet, but so many things have happened that have made me happy/sad etc whatever that i just have to blog. after quite a while oO

1) i passed napfa! :D of course i would have liked to have gotten a gold, but sbj is really too hard to improve over such a short period of time and i wasn't going to risk injuring myself by taking another jump. still, it's a large large improvement from last year when i eff-ed it up real bad and got stuck in fitness for the rest of the year.

2) i think i have an issue with emotions. i get attached to people too easily, and i end up having a hard time letting go. i think too much about things around me, so much so that i inevitably reduce my self-esteem to such an extent that i can hardly stand myself. sigh. at least i didn't cry in front of my mom/dad and i'm really grateful for people who have helped me feel better.

3) i got in! after near-killing myself training 5 days in a row and potentially 6 i'm going up to malaysia with the team! i just hope i don't screw up, i really want to justify the coaches' decision.

and finally thank god. i really really wouldn't have survived this week without Jesus. all glory to Him.

slau updated @ 6:23 PM

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