Wednesday, March 25, 2009
so my birthday has come and gone...18 years old already! i should be maturing by now.
i learnt alot of things on the KL trip, alot of new ways to look at life, alot of things about other people. alot of possibilities, and alot of ways in which things can turn out differently from what you initially expect them to be. it wasn't exactly a very fulfilling time in terms of softball, i basically screwed up in my first and only chance to play and i think it's justified that someone else took over the position for subsequent matches, but the team is really a strong one, and we showed that in the last game against m'sia.
anyway i've decided to continue going back for trainings as often as i can. obviously school ones come first, because i have a commitment to the institution that's brought me so far, but i feel that these trainings can really help me improve. being around people who are so much better than me and have so much more to offer can only stand me in good stead in the future, and i hope that i can up my standard before the nationals come around. the whole team can't be depending on just watson to hold the game. i can throw so many more people out, stop so many more throws better. read the game in a much more matured fashion.
maturity. it really is something that i've been finding hard to grasp, even when experiences aren't really considered a first when i face them. i should be ready to handle what life throws at me, especially when i've encountered them before, but i always find myself ill-prepared and unready. and i tend to over-react as a result.
it is heartening to find people like kenny who, even though they don't know you very well, are so open to sharing things about life with you. yes, the subject matter may sound superficial to some, but to me it is really applicable in many other situations. it helps me control my temper, my emotions, and helps me come up with a more rational response to things. just like in the game; relax and take it easy. choose not to hit rather than to hit. never throw behind the runner. so many things to remember in that split second when the difference of a step, the width of the barrel of a bat, can determine which side wins or loses. when it's two done in the ninth, (or fifth. or tenth, as ichiro showed.) will i be mature enough to carry myself as the person that i want to be?
obviously i haven't been concentrating on math, but i feel that i am adequetly prepared. just need to do some last minute revision. at least i'm being more serious about my studies, although econs was really honestly hell. what a way to celebrate a birthday.
slau updated @ 7:43 PM
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