Well of Illusions!

Sunday, January 27, 2008

yeah well, ok i know i told some people i was going to sleep but sorry i really needed some time on my own to reflect and review this past week.

what has struck me most about this period which i've reflected about if how faithful my God has been to me. even though i've been such an uncommitted christian, smsing in church and sleeping sometimes and not taking God seriously, now i know He hasn't ever left my side, and is still as close to me as He was when i first entered this world.

i was really really scared on the way to school to collect my HCL o's and you have no idea how badly i was suffering the night before. i hardly got any sleep in the end, and i was practically surviving on coffee for the whole of thursday.

i actually had my doubts while praying, i mean i think God does have common sense of His own as well, and since the o's were the most important thing to me at that point in time i full expected God to dish out some kind of punishment.

but praise be to Him that i believe in such a loving and kind God. i did pass, albeit not very well but i'm still very grateful because admittedly i didn't put in alot of effort.

that's the first.

immediately the next day was my raffles rock auditions and the results of the first round of talentime auditions. so obviously with my o's out of the way i could fully focus my anguish on these two things, and yes that was when the feverish praying in tongues and pleading and begging with God actually began but yes all the glory goes to Jesus my saviour i made it to the next round of talentime and my auditions for raffles rock proceeded without any mistakes/calamities/tragedies and i'm just waiting and expecting their call saying yes you got in (: this is the faith my God has instilled in me that yes, anything is possible with Jesus!

ya i know i may not seem very staunch or pious at times, and i do admit that i'm a lousy testimony. i admit that i have strayed very far away, and i'm very much a prodigal's son at the moment. but i am overjoyed that God has accepted me as His son, and i am more than willing to get my life with Him back on track again!

in school and at home, my prayer is that i will be someone that God will be proud of, someone who can reflect His love and His kindness, and be a living sacrifice for Him (:

and, to quote isabella's nick:

in every victory, let it be said of me: my source of strength, my source of hope; is Christ alone!

all glory be to God!

so plsplspls if i have offended anyone in any way i'd like to ask for your forgiveness pls give me a second chance ): i'm not half the man i used to be because now i hope that God is actively working His way in and through me to make me a better person!

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slau updated @ 12:51 AM

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