Well of Illusions!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

well, the c div lost today. quite badly too. all i can say is, be thankful this isn't the nationals and take this as a wake up call that you guys arent unbeatable, and there are still teams out there that can take you on and give you a good fight.

i dunno about anyone else, but i've never dared to count teams like cat high out of the equation. sometimes i really give them respect for the discipline that they exhibit on the field. some people may call it being...i dunno girly? but i've never heard anyone from the cat high team shout and scream when they make a good play, just clapping and the usual encouragement. then back to focusing on the game, no dwelling on past occurences.

of course it's different for peicai and orchird park but we shan't go that shall we?

even for acsi, no matter how poseur their softballers are, they still continue to fight when they're down, when people think that they're out. and maybe it's good that christian school's won the softball b div title two years running now...?

of course i hope it won't be three, but you get what i mean.

thinking back to what could have been this year makes me feel really screwed up: how i maybe should have elected to throw the guy out at two against peicai when it was one and three loaded and make it two down, or maybe i should have gone for that specific pitch against orchird park to maybe get on base...everyone says the same thing; get over it, it's done with...but it's not that easy when you bow out that way.

it's not easy to forget losing a game where you were 8 up. it's not easy to forget bowing out of the tournament because some other teams got the exact score needed to put you out, whether by artificial means i shall not specify lest those petty idiots decide to take me to court over this. id just really love to slam a fist into their faces when i'm stuck in a dark deserted alley with them. and no, my anger and frustration and hatred for them will not make me lose.

just like how i will never get pushed over by anyone again, whether physically or mentally.

todays game of soccer during lunch made me see that even a small fry like so and so can do you some harm, whether you take him for granted or not. maybe it was the wound on my knee that made me go to the ground so easily, but next time, i won't be the one going down.

i've got to work. we've all got to work, for next year and the year after that, to show the world that 2007 was fruitless not because we were screwups, but because we were done in by a group of screwups. screwups without any pride, screwups who would give up a place in the finals just to continue a petty feud that they know they will never win by legal means.

and that fucking umpire better be on his cheebye guard. especially if he's going to ump our c div games.

and to the c div, if anyone comes here at all, take this loss in your stride and work forward, work to get to another level, because today isnt the end. there's still a long way to go, and all our hopes are resting upon your shoulders now.

we want revenge. we want it badly. we want it now.

slau updated @ 1:41 AM

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