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Friday, May 18, 2007

maybe it was a wrong move to restart my blog, because i have nothing to blog about now! like, NOTHING! really! this blog is just going to rot and all i'm going to do is change the blogskin and then post some random stuff like kevin lim -_-

well anyway, my life has been very exciting as of late. entertaining thoughts of suicide, masquerade, and whatnots. here are some of the...highlights i would suppose:

1) my psp
right now it's with tze ern, because it's technically mine, but in reality it's not. okay fine i don't really know what that means, but putting it in simple terms, my parents think it's not mine, but it's really mine. they think it's a friend's, and therefore i had to 'return' it because they thought i would be spending too much time on it. so now i play it like during reces, lunch....CLASS xD and let tze ern take it home to charge and play. so now he has his own account on marvel ultimate alliance and he's completely pwning me even though he's playing on normal and i'm playing on easy -_-

2) avatar
I FOUND A SITE WITH ALL THE AVATAR EPISODES! :D oh joy! i totally <3 avatar because it's kinda cool like in the LoTR cool but it's damn...anime and damn whacky at the same time. but it made me feel damn emo for a certain period of time. maybe it was because we got DUMPED OUT OF THE NATIONALS BECAUSE WE GOT SOME FUCKTARD FOR AN UMPIRE FOR OUR PEICAI FUCKING GAME and because SO AND SO IN ORANGE and SO AND SO IN GREY AND IN torrentIAL RAIN FIXED A FUCKING MATCH TO KICK US FUCKING OUT, but it made me feel damn emo and i was lamenting during some random cct to niu lao shi that i was going to jump before the test.

i dunno what came over me la. i think the best possible way of expressing it was that i felt very lousy and screwed up and that my life was amounting to nothing. like seriously, i'm not fantastic at studies. not that i want to be in fact. even if i'm damn good in studies, i'd still like to have my main goal of being a good sportsman. national champs at the very least, and we could have fucking did it this year. seriously, having a 2-0 win-loss record against the eventual national champs isn't something to just dismiss like that, especially when the second one was by a score of 11-1.

okay fine maybe people might just do that especially since we fucking LOST AN EIGHT RUN LEAD AGAINST PEICAI BECAUSE OF THAT FUCKING UMPIRE MOTHER CHEEBYE. seriously la how can you expect someone to forget about that?! how can you expect me to forgive?! fucking bastards. fucking orchirds. fucking orange cheebyes.

so i was damn emo because this final year had amounted to nothing. zilch. zero. and in the worst possible way. i will never forgive that fucktard umpire. never forget those two fucked up coaches from the two fucked up schools. even the fucked up schools and the fucked up sports council. chao cheebyes. zonals against peicai could not have come any sooner. they will be in for a very very violent reception and i hope one of the fucktards from the school comes here to read THIS HERE HERE THERE <-------------.

FUCK la.

3) I'M TOO FUCKING PISSED TO CONTINUE.

slau updated @ 12:09 AM

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